27 June, 2007
stress = squeky clean house...
k lady: ala takyah tunggu 25 thn... agaknya esok lusa ni pun kalau kitaorang baca mau rasa geli geleman, gelak tergolek2 agaknya... huhu
startled early in the morning by afifah's sudden cry... when i checked, her eyelids were still close but she was a bit restless... maybe just a nightmare & was hungry for her night feed... fed & hushed her to sleep...
about the same time, hubby just entered the room after a long night working on something downstairs... he was out earlier, closed a case i think... alhamdulillah rezeki... he only had about 2 hours of sleep before leaving for work...
remembered that i forgot to put away our dinner leftovers, went downstairs & started cleaning up... meant only to clear up the the dinner table & wash the dishes, but ended up cleaning up the whole kitchen & living room which include sweeping & mopping the floor... huhu... it was a relieve.. satisfied... even felt better than our usual weekends cleaning which were usually tiring.. maybe because it was 5 in the morning, the cool atmosphere & the silence made me feel more relaxed doing the chores... it also had became some sort of therapy for me ... less resentment... maybe i should do this more often... which means i should get distressed more often too, eh? huhu...
26 June, 2007
Bugger... sweet eh!
something is bugging me lately... which actually affect my focus on things that i'm doing... trying to get it out of my head but it'll always comes back... urgh! irritating! somehow i think i know how to let it go... but need help with it... i wouldn't be able to do it on my own.. even if i try, it'll still comes back creeping in my mind... what i need is just assurance and recognition... it's mine... you just have to show that you are aware of it... & respect me for that... hmm or is it just me? Yea.. yea... take an easy excuse out.. blame it on the PMS... but i'll still be thinking bout it...
tgh2 malam 2 weekends yg lalu bila mana cik abg menyelongkar gerobok lama dalam bilik kitaorang kat kedah nu... ini yg kitaorang jumpa... huhuhu
1. all the tags that he kept since secondary school...
2. se laci khazanah yg tah hapa2
3. buku nota kecik dari F1... macam2 benda ditulis dalam ni... ala2 reminder dlm hp la... segala budgetla, list barang nak beli bila outing, list barang nak bawak balik... hatta skrip nak cakap ngan mak dia bila call ke rumah pun ada hahahah...
these of course la from u know who kan.... *wink* yg lain2 adala tah mana2 dah terpakai ke, dah season ke..
whoa... inilah buktinya ahaks! over 5 years of long distance relationship... huhu... of course la dlm my cupboard @ mom's pun ada 3 file besar cenggini... tapi takdela macam pakcik ni dgn sampul2 pun kumpul lagi ekekek.. simpan phone card gak tu... heh nak ngungkit apa :P
someday we'll fine time to read all the letters... haha sure lawaks... even malam tu pun dah cukup terkekek2 depan gerobok lama tu... lagi2 bila tgk album2 lama dia... hehe sweet...
20 June, 2007
Happy Fathers Day!!!
dok pk problem yg melanda je... terlupa nak buat entry utk lelaki2 special dalam hidup nonie... hehe a belated fathers day wish for them... abah, abg & not to forget my FIL... also to all fathers out there... dah wish pun derang on the day.. takde celebration apa pun...
another backdated stort... last weekends nonie, ad & afifah balik ke kedah... melawat mak yg operate lutut dia sebelah lagi, moga2 lepas operation ni mak dah takde masalah sakit lutut lagi.. kalau tak kesian tengok dia sukar bergerak, kadang2 dalam rumah pun terpaksa berkerusi roda... nasib baik jugak kali ni dik ah tgh cuti semester, jadi bolehla jaga mak kat spital.. hajat di hati nonie pun nak tolong jugak jaga mak tapi dengan anak dara yg takmo ngan orang ni payah la plak... apa yg mampu nonie buat ialah mendoakan mak & tolong2 ayah kat rumah apa yg patut sementara mak kat spital ni... tu pun tak lama... hari isnin kembali ke KL & lepas maghrib plak balik ke JB...
biasala rumah yg ditinggalkan suri lebih kurang 3 minggu... berhabuk la sket, rumput rampainya pun dah memanjang... bila masa la cik abg tu nak menyapu ke cabut rumput ke yea dak... keluar umah matahari baru nak kuar... balik umah bulan dah mengambang... nampak katil jela... hujung minggu plak berulang ke dengkil...
since nonie ada seminar hari selasa tu, afifah pun terpaksala di hantar ke nursery... lepas 3 minggu tak menjengah ke situ... apa lagi bersememeh air mata la anak dara tu kena tinggal dgn cikgunya... cikgu dia bagitau anak dara tu siap mogok takmo nyusu... even ebm... fm apatah lagi, dari jauh nampak bitol pun dah menggapai2 tangan tunjuk takmau... nasib baikla gak dia nak makan nestum & minum air kosong.. kalau tak, mau kelaparan dia hari tu...
i'm not looking forward to the seminar esp with the lack of finding... hanya mampu share cerita sedih kegagalan access to the site sepanjang 3 minggu ni... the good thing is my sv was not surprised with what i presented... in fact she said that it could be included in the thesis... hmmm ada gak pekdahnya juga yea... tapi tersegan plak dgn my next presentation yg mmg tangkap muat due to frustration... derang tak kata apa... tapi nonie sendiri tau bende tu nampak sgt tak berapa nak prepare... at least i've learnt my lesson & need to start anew.
talking bout learning the lesson... i recommend everybody to read dale carnegie's work... the one i'm reading right now... "How to Win Friends and Influence People"...thanx to someone who recommended me this book... it was really enlightening... gave me different perspectives of things (more positive ones...)
19 June, 2007
learning art....
One fine Monday morning... a call to a government agency...
Me: Hello, may I speak to Mrs. XXX please?
*&^*&^*: (With an irritated tone) Sorry, Mrs. XXX has gone to London & please don't call this number again, she's not here anymore. TQ. Click (She hang up..)
Me: errr
apa salah nonie?
who can teach me the art of contacting government agencies???
15 June, 2007
ups & downs
Most married couples will have their ups and downs... & right now I'm sort of married to my research & currently experiencing our down momments... huhu...
happen to receive a free consultation from one of the people that i've interviewed for my research... from the only site that were being co-operative to me... it's just that i was lucky that they have vested interest on what i'm doing... thanx to their co-operation & thanx to the tn. hj. for his advice...
yup i have to learn the art of doing the thing that i intend to do before judging the situation... it could possibly be my own mistake... need to stop putting blame on others... what he said might be a bit harsh on me & he even apologized for it... but i'm open for it... after all i'm still in the learning process... the realization was dawning and i have to admit that i was a bit dissapointed with myself with what have happened. it was all caused by my own wrong judgments and assumptions... i really need to change my strategy & pray hard that it'll work fine this time... what's the strategy? hmmm that i'll still need to figure...
on a brighter note... afifah dah pandai menapak 3,4 langkah!!! dlm pada sibuk2 serabuts ngadap notebook ni kadang2 nonie terberhenti2 gak buat keje sbb excited nengok anak dara ni bertatih free hand... ready je ngan camera nak capture the moments.. dapatla record sket smalam tapi tak sempat nak upload lagik... setelah berbulan asyik meniti kat tepi perabot je anak dara tu at last she managed to her first own steps...
ok back to work...
13 June, 2007
calmer me...
felt a bit better after chatting with a friend yesterday... not that i've found any solution to the problem, but sharing the same worries actually helped a lot... huhu... she also gave me some good news which i could enjoy in another 2 months time... thanx friend
divert my worries to be more productive on other stuffs... other than the data collection, i have tones of other pending tasks to be completed... looking at the gantt chart, i have at least another two months to work out something to resolve this problems to make sure that i stay on track....
ish lapar la plak... tadi sambil buat kerja ni mak dah suap separuh pinggan ni terliur la plak rasa cam nak sambung makan lagi hehe... tapi mesti tak sama rasa sedapnya macam mak suap tadi... nak pi ngengada lagi rasa mak nak layan tak huhuhu...
nak tengok gambar2 kenduri lagi??? layan sini
12 June, 2007
stress!!!
i'm really down right now... stuck with my data collection... semuanya gara2 org2 kerajaan yg kononnya bz sentiasa... takkanla tokleh nak sparekan 1-2 hours je 2 be interviewed... i bet derang spent masa utk keluar rehat pun lagi lama... ish tak co-operative lansung!
kena pk strategy lain... teringat zaman2 study masa SPM & undergrad dulu... bila tension je rasa nak quit & kawin hahah... skrang dah kawin nak rasa apa plak... errr rasa cam nak baby lagi? kotla boleh murah rezeki & dapat miracle macam masa buat master dulu hahaha... jangan di layan fikiran org stress ini...
lagi perasaan tak puas hati...
apsal ha ada sesetengah org tu, kalau pi kenduri kawin yg hidang buffet mukanya sungguh tak malu amik makanan sepenuh2 pinggan... kalau abis takpe gak, ini kadang2 membazir... eeee geram btul... kalau ko pi makan buffet kat hotel bayar 30-40 hengget nak buat suka suki camtu takpela gak... ini kenduri orang... sungguh tak tau malu... itu pun ada sesetengah tempat kalau makan buffet tak abis depa charge extra tau! patkan la kami ni tak cukup kaki tangan... kalau tak sure dah ada geng catu makanan kat meja buffet tu... kalau buat camtu org mengata kita berkira plak... tapi sebab segelintir org2 yg tamak haloba gitu la ada sesetengah kenduri depa memang ctrl food intake tu kan... membazir tu kan sahabat syaitan... ingat2 sket!
lagi satu, kalau kita2 ni berkenaan dengan tuan rumah... lagi2 plak sedara mara rapat... elak2la jadik cam guest @ VIP plak... datang hari lansung je, pastu pasang badan... buat2 macam tak berkenaan... paling2 tak pun buat2la macam angkat pinggan 2,3 biji ke... sibuk2 ke sana ke mari ke... stakat dok kat tepi2 memerhati @ worse nyibuk nak menyumbang sore berkaraoke je baikla tak payah.. buat sakit mata & telinga je...
sorryla yea... memahat lepas umah dah siap plak... saja nak meluah rasa... peringatan kepada org2 yg bakal berkenduri & diri sendiri... blame it on the stress...
06 June, 2007
i need help...
rasanya selalu jer someone from MIMOS menjengah ke sini kan? errr tumpang tanya sket boleh? kenal tak Agnes Ng? apsal susah bebeno nak contact mak cik ni yea? i really need some info from her... kalau tak dari dia pun dari sapa2 la kat situ yg tau anything about the OSS survey conducted sometime last year... help me please!!!
05 June, 2007
kenduri kawin...
2,3 hari ni bz... bz tolong mak menguruskan kenduri kawin si Aril, cousin nonie depan rumah tu... as mentioned earlier, parents nonie yang menguruskan kenduri ni menggantikan parents si Aril, arwah mak long & pak long nonie...
jumaat mlm sabtu ada kenduri doa selamat merangkap kenduri arwah... menunya nasi ayam & kuih muih... nonie memangla berhajat nak menolong mak & lain2 mana yang terdaya... tapi dengan adanya anak dara ni, bantuan nonie limited la plak... mana taknya, pantang nampak maknya ni... merengek aje nak melekap... paling2 nonie boleh escape pun bila adik nonie, pak usunya came to the rescue... nak mintak tolong ayahnya, dah sah2la ayahnya balik lambat... malam tu kenduri tu dah abis baru dia sampai dari johor...
esoknya plak lepas zohor kami beramai2 (ramai tak ramai adala dalam 12 kereta rasanya... ntah2 kan lebih huhu) mengiring si Aril ke melaka untuk majlis nikahnya lepas asar... tu pun sebab lalu jalan lama dek mengelakkan jammed teruk kat hiway, kami lambat sket >< 1/2 jam dari upacara akad nikah yg sepatutnya berlansung pada pukul 5pm...
alhamdulillah wpun jurunikah terpaksa menunggu pengantin sekejap... dengan sekali lafaz je yg laju & kuat macam keretapi lalu si Aril pun sahla menjadi suami orang...
legala semua orang... lepas makan2 kitaorang pun balik ke Rumah persinggahan yang di sewa oleh si Aril lebih kurang 10 minutes drive dr rumah pengantin perempuan... kat Pengkalan Balak...
malam tu kitaorang attend majlis berinai plak... meriah gak dengan pertunjukkan bunga api & silat gayung... cik afifah bukan main seronok nengok org bersilat… terjerit2 anak dara tu… orang seronok bukan ajer sebab tgk org bersilat tu, tapi sebab menengokkan gelagat anak dara yg excited sungguh nengok orang bersilat hehe…
esok tengaharinya pulak majlis persandingan & makan beradab… bila sessi bergambar pengantin bersama keluarga, kitaorang sekeluarga terover la plak meng’conquer’ majlis bergambar huhuh…
pengantin bersama sepupu sepapat...
Kitaorg pun interframe sekali... hehe
Semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu... AMIN!!!
Hmmm weekends ni bz menguruskan kenduri belah kitaorang la pulak... erk...mesti flat punya...