11 June, 2004
Blackout & spoiled mood
2 hari lepas berdating Harry Porter dgn kak ina... sepanjang jln bergossip pasal CB... macam˛ citer ada... (ikut tune iklan astro) diintroducekan plak pada Nanchos with cheese & sour cream dip... hmm btul sour cream lagi sedap & mulut nonie lenguh lepas habiskan sebekas bende tuh... citernya okla, tataula nonie rasa sket boring compared to the previous one & compared to my readings... agaknya imaginasi nonie terlampau tinggi sbb nonie rasa yg ini kurang magic, so kurang umph... hehe
malam tadi tido awal... pkul 9 lebih dah tido... tido dlm gelap bertemankan lilin sebab blackout... tatau kenapa mlm tadi nonie jadik seorg yg sangat berani, sikit pun tak rasa takut & nervous duduk bergelap sorang˛... kalau tak kenkadang tuh duduk dalam terang benderang pun boleh terpk macam˛.. macam ada bende melintas˛ depan pintula, macam ada org jalan˛ ngintai tepi tingkapla... malam tadi nothing... & i was a bit surprised myself... hehe
dunno why woke up with dreadful feelings... tingat balik with what happened during the closing ceremony yesterday... citer ngan kak ina bout it last night & she said we have all the right to feel that way... memang tak patut... kalau dia pun, she might acted the same way... but not everybody share the same opinion... some people thing we are a bunch of emotional, irrational, overacting group of people... shouldn't be too loud & all... well, we wouldn't be that mad or loud or emotional if our queries, pleads & questions were entertained previously... a simple sorry will do... it is not a big deal anyway... but then all of those were replied with blank & ignorant faces... as if it wasn't their fault that the things turned out that way... 'it was just too bad... an unfortunate things to you guys.... so let it be!' hish memang tak professional lansung!!!... therefore being pissed of & ill tempered myself... we ended up being loud... chattering all our dissastisfaction at our lunch table ignoring the looking eyes... moreover it was not the first time they we being unfair to us.... for me that's the way to release the dissatisfaction if anything else were being ignored... at least i get to pour my heart out & forget it.... at least that managed to get the fasis around our table & really listen to us... ha puas ati! kalau tak buat bodoh jer... then only they admit the mistakes, & apologized profusely to us...
so, we can't blame those who didn't actually know what happened & how it really feels like... we do look a bit overeacted at that time... maybe we were wrong.... they themselves might handle the situation more gracefully & professionally if it's actually happening to them... so be it! anyway, things are settled with the fasis... it ended up quite OK... so why bother what people say??? macamla kita nie baik sangat & tak pernah kutuk orang.... duh!
Hmmm but just can't help it my mood are spoiled today & i regretted mentioning bout it... i should actually forget it at the lunch table...
missing my sharing friends....