19 November, 2005
God knows best...
mmg camtu ke? emosi tak stabil? satu2 perasaan jadik berganda2... busuk bertambah2 busuk... tak larat bertambah2 tak larat... risau bertambah2 risau, sedih bertambah2 sedih... takde plak nak bertambah2 gembira... sebab belum rasa gembira lagi kot except when i know that i'm actually pregnant... tapi lepas tu...isk isk uwaaaaa
mintak2 la lepas... mintak2 la Johno will be very lenient... i was tired, dizzy and nauseous... menjurus kepada blank... isk, apa lagi balik umah lepas tu jadik menah air mata la... rasanya bukannya tak pernah jawab exam rasa cam hampeh camni... tapi this time i was very very worried... in fact i'm still worrying... i've answered them all tapi i'm quite sure that i didn't answer enough... pastu mula terfikir what if i did this wrong... what if i did that wrong... one 'what if' lead to another pastu mula la perasaan risau tu magnify... isk isk isk...
sekarang hanya berserah pada Tuhan ditenangkan hati & berdoa agar semuanya akan OK... if else.. (Na'uzubillah) i hope i'll be redha... it's not that i didn't study... i really wasn't feeling very well... God knows best...