20 October, 2005
Al-fatihah & Takziah
Al fatihah buat Datin Seri Endon di atas pemergian beliau ke rahmatullah... semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat Allah... semoga Pak Lah & keluarga juga tabah menghadapi dugaan kehilangan org tersayang mereka...
nonie dpt tau berita ni t/hari tadi masa mata ghalit nak terlelap sbb tak cukup tido malam tadi... abg dok ngadap notebook & terbaca update berita ni dari Yahoo Malaysia... rasa cam mimpi jer berita ni, walaupun tau dia mmg dah lama sakit, coz the last time i heard she was stable... sesungguhnya Allah lebih menyayangi beliau...
tak lama lepas tu bukak my fav forum... sure dah ada org bukak thread pasal berita ni... i was right, mmg dah ada thread ramai org ucap takziah & tulis perasaan terkejut dgn berita ni dlm thread tu... cuma ada satu entry ni buat nonie rasa tak best jer baca..
"...but this news is not a shock to me... expected gitu... just look at her age and her medical condition laa... takan nak expect dia tongkat langit kot..."
in a way this entry reminded me of a call that i received from a so called friend a day after my brother passed away... rasanya cam pernah cerita bende ni kat entry dulu2 tapi nak citer gak la balik... & this was what the guy said to me...
"... ok ke? takziah bla bla bla.... sebnarnya masa dengar adik ko masuk ICU hari tu aku dah agak dah adik ko nak meninggal..."
maybe i was too sensitive, tapi tatau apsal mmg tokleh terima la statement ni... maybe he didn't mean to hurt my feelings, tapi terasa cam dia cakap cam tak berpk... perlu ke cakap bende ni? kalau yea pun tau, diam2 dahla... i bet org lain pun maybe ada perasaan yg sama, tapi takdela yg gatal2 mulut nak cakap bende2 camtu... in fact kitaorg sebagai family members pun ada gak tergerak dlm hati... tapi we were hoping for the best... in fact, arwah Zaidi was discharged from the ICU & macam agak sihat sehari dua lepas tu... cara 'my friend' ni cakap macamla kalau masuk ICU jer hampir confirm meninggal punyala, sedangkan he didn't even visited my bro masa tu... main sedap mulut jer cakap... org dahla tgh sedih, bertambah sedih & sakit hati plak ngan dia... lepas daripada tu & on top of other things that made me not very keen of him, i decided not to be his friend anymore... maybe macam kejamla, tapi i've figured drp menanggung dosa sakit ati & mengutuk dia jer dgn bende2 yg keluar dr mulut dia baikla takyah kawan ngan org camni....
which bring me back to the statement that i found in the thread today... mungkin apa yg mamat tu tulis ada benarnya... cuma cara dia tulis tu cam harsh sketla bagi nonie... di kala org tgh bersedih2 ni kan... tapi dia sekadar tulis dlm forum takpela kot... i doubt any of Pak Lah's family members will read it pun... so, biaq pi la.. afterall, maybe i'm the only one who are being too sensitive...
again, semoga roh Datin Seri Endon & semua roh org2 yg kita kasihi dicucuri rahmat Allah sentiasa terutama sekali di bulan ramadhan yg mulia ini... AMIN!